Cleaning Fairy MIA

I'll be honest, I was pretty bummed this morning. It's Mother's Day and yet I didn't awake to fresh flowers, or breakfast laid out or even coffee made. The kids hadn't carefully prepared cards or gifts, in fact they barely acknowledged me while I made myself a coffee. I felt hurt, sad and under appreciated.

So, moping, I sat down to drink my coffee and peruse social media in silence.

But as the caffeine kicked in I began to realize that maybe I wasn't so sad, maybe I had exactly what I wanted.

I awoke beside my husband, surrounded by my dogs and without excessive pain. I had more than enough energy to get up and help Asher feed his fish and the boys are independent enough that they could let the dogs out and get some breakfast while I had a long, leisurely shower. Then I got dressed (in leggings covered with a donut and unicorn print!) without having to be extra careful of incisions/scars AND I wasn't exhausted by the end of it.

Coming to the kitchen I looked around at the 'mess' left over from Asher's birthday yesterday and at first I was grumpy the cleaning fairy didn't show again... but then the comfort of a lived in house settled on me. The kids were engrossed in a show but they were watching something together, and since they were wearing their headphones, it was silent. Breakfast wasn't made for me, but that meant I could make and enjoy my Golden quinoa, chia, hemp porridge with strawberries and maple syrup without judgement of "ewww" from the peanut gallery.

I do miss the usual Mother's Day celebrations we have with our extended families and I look forward to a time when we can gather safely again. BUT that means I have no obligations today and will likely spend a good part of the day knitting. I'm working on a kimono sweater for Ben's teachers newborn daughter, I love baby knits!

I'm not sure what the rest of the day will bring but regardless, I'm grateful to be alive, to be functioning (mostly) normally again, to have happy, healthy children and a handsome, hardworking husband.

Happy Mother's Day to my Mama, my Grand-mama and my Mama-in-law xoxo